It's the strangest thing, for once in so long I can't remeber i haven't had a strong desire to go on the internets these past four days.

it's probably due to the complete bliss that has surrounded said days.

thanksgiving, my favorite meal and then all four days spent with my entire family becuase my dad didn't have work, putting up the tree, hanging up ornaments, taking "family pictures" for the first time in years, we used my camera of course stacked on vhs tapes on a stool where i focused it set the timer and ran back to the couch to pose pretty.

we had antlers and santa hats too.

thanksgiving leftovers that i had the last of today, including my sweet potatoes that are technically yams because actual sweet potatoes aren't as good as yams, plus theyre an ickier color. the only thing i can really cook all by myself, the thing that i make evry year by default continuing tradition and adding the things i think will go well each year differently because i never can remeber, it's always good, at least i think so. and my family says so, and back when i was friends with kami and mark and stephen they said so but then later kami told me they were lying and nobody liked my yams.

we put together a snoopy puzzle while watching the charlie brown christmas special.

i got beckah in to taylor swift so we went through the whole next week on GAC and...the one below it..A something, country channels to record the things concerning her. today bekah's even memorizing some of her songs, it's amazing what an infulence i have on her, and also scary because i don't want to accidentally turn her off to something she loves because i voice an opinion of dislike.

we were home almost the whole four days, save the trip to the bx to find more puzzles but found there selections was beyond horrible so we settled on a 750 thomas kinkade that only my dad and i are working on becuase my sisters repeatedly declare that it is much too hard for them.

my mom got into tonight though.

been watching csi and cold case.

i'm dreading going back to school in less than 12 hours, i dread doing my essay due on friday that i have no interest in and thinking about it makes me want to run away until my first and last semester of college is over.

i have to do well though, or i'll disappoint my mom, becuase she knows i can do well if i try. like how i got a B on my last essay and that is HUGE becuase my teacher is a chinese stickler that i don't think cries and chose her husband based on a point system.

plus the grading process on them almost solely revolves around the levels of a C grade.

Some B's.

Like 2 A's.

I was beyond proud of myself, the essay i worked on in one day for hours with the motivation of getting new birkenstocks.

i need that for this last essay, well it's not the last one since we have a fifth one but that one is done in computer lab, i'm going to do horrid in that one. essay 2 in computer lab was bad, i freeze and up and can't work on a sticky keyboard surrounded by people and minutes ticking by.

plus i still need ot tell my dad i'm not going back to school.

and my mom has mentioned art school to him to which he replied "what? what is that?" and we replied "a school that is for art, teaches only art" and he "what do you do there? why do you want to go there? etc" i "becuase i like art blahblahblha"

it was funny, he was so confused as to waht an art school was and what its purpose is.

which could be understandable, what job do you get with a degree from an art school but not an actual college?

do they even give anything out?

regardless i don't care, if i did i would continue my college career.

see when i go this long i have way too much to write, all the stuff going on in my head and outside of my head.

i don't know if i'm going ot get my painting for class done in time, i was supposed to work on it the last 4 days bcuase i brought it home becasue it's taking me too long and at the rate i'm currently going in class it will not be done.

crapcrapcrap.

i'm so excited for when this is over and i wait out the last few months of living here without a job or school.

i will be a bum.

only not, in my mind it will be like these past 4 days have been, only minus the warm glow of the christmas tree that literally transforms the whole mood of the room and my dad will be working, my sisters schooling here.

i want to put these last four days on a loop please.

oh yeah and for the first time lillie and i took christmas pictures and they are sew kute. i made her a bow and myself a matching one out of christmas ribbon stuff and we sat on the rocking chair in front of the tree and i held her and we were cute, it was quite a feat becuase she does not like being held, for even a second, at all, she immediately goes into feral cat mode and puts her ears back and pushes off from whatever surface she can find on me with her toenails, i can't remeber the last time we got a picture together not on macbook. even on macbook she's in weasel mode.

we're going to start doing it every year i concluded, wear matching bows and take a christmas picture.

mother daughter christmas picture.

ooo we should get her gams in on the one next year! 3 generations of ladies!

i'm not joking about any of this unfortunately, i am a master at improv-ing words in well known songs to be about lillie.

it's pretty cool.