quiet happy job, small money but pleasurable and fulfilling. no killing of my soul.

the rest of the time spent with family.

i always miss them the most when i'm about to go to school, maybe i'm selfish for that.

but i'm leaving in 30 minutes and must get in the shower, yet what i really want to do is stop being a grown up and go sit with my sisters and talk about nerdy things we have in common. heck, right now i'd even watch star trek with them with delight.

and make some coffee for when mom wakes up. that is what i enjoy in life.

but no.

i hate being a grown up.