i lingered in the classroom after everyone had left. i was just confused, i don't even know about what.

my teacher asked if i was getting everything and handling it,

i asked her if she thought i was going to fail, she said no she didn't think so and that i was very bright.

sh'es an older asian lady, her heart must be small but that's ok. she told us when she decided to get married she literally made charts and added or subtracted points from the 5 men she was considering.

she decided to do this after realizing that she would like to have children and thus had to get married.

she's very analytical i think.

but i so enjoy feeling like i did well. only then i get to class and we go over the assignment and i see how horribly wrong i was.

i'm trying.

"Too many Christian women think that the inner longings of their heart relate only to love, marriage and motherhood. Look a little closer and see if that longing isn't ultimately for Jesus."

"No one, not even the man you will marry someday, can make you happy-only Jesus can."

"One's friends drive you either toward or away from God"

"A whole new generation of Christians has come up believing that it is possible to 'accept' Christ without forsaking the world." - A.W. Tozer.

"The saddest thing one meets is a nominal Christian." - Amy Carmichael

My big prayer right now is to stop thinking about my husband, to stop thinking about who he might be. To stop thinking about the guys in or out of my life that may be him.

To stop thinking about guys. Turn my daydreaming head off.