i actually am a happy person.

a sad person does not wear a bright red 101 dalmations tshirt with matching turquoise earrings and eyeliner.

today after going to a movie with a friendish i realized that perhaps i should not be in social situations.

at least ones where i'm not fully comfortable with the person. i literally trip my words up. my brain moves way too fast so when i  speak i don't know which of the many words in my head to say- so i try to just not talk.

or i stutter.

or make weird squinty faces because i don't have my glasses on.

i'm freaking awkward and not in the cool way.

my gooooshhhh do i need coffee.