my mom is thinking about leaving my dad again.

in the midst of this, in the midst of our plans to move to texas and buy a big house.

this has happened before, for the same reasons. it fell through.

i don't know if it will this time too.

i'm depressed and it's christmas. depressed because it doesn't feel like it and i don't have the effort of desire to make it festive.

my dad has been a scrooge all day, most of it stemming from wanting champagne and not getting his way.

it's big. it's little. i got the thing i wanted most, "Influence" but it has mary kate on the cover not ashley.

i wanted ashley.

my hair is dark red.

this too shall pass. even though my father is an asshole. even if my 3 sisters and mom and i get a small house instead of all living in a big one.

I'm lonely.

Plus I only have one CSI left. My priorities, i haz them.

gg watch "the nativity story" w/ mom now.

MERRY CHRISMUKKAHHHHH :0)