C H A R A C T E R S

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

I've never really been a big John Mayer person. Sure his music was alright, but it was never buy-the-cd worthy or myspace profile song important. And sure, he's cute. But only recently have I discovered that I'm mildly enamored with him. And it's only since following him on twitter (I made one just so I could follow interesting ones, I don't update). It's like that feeling after you've had a dream with a celebrity, the next day and perhaps weeks after you feel like you know them. Only I don't remember having a JM dream. #1 He's passionate about music and he's funny (watch)

#2 He likes The Land Before Time movies (you know those cartoons with the dinosaurs-Little Foot etc?) And I do too, matter a fact I bought 2 and 3 on DVD recently at Walmart. Photobucket

He's awesome

You have such a generous spirit. Thank you. RT @bellagrican you r adorable if i ever date a white guy ill holler ;)

Hey twitttterversh.. Commeer. (Throws arms haphazardly around you.) I... No, serioussssly...I... I love you, man. NO! He- hear me out. 4:21 AM May 16th from TwitterBerry

I wonder if when I have a wife I'll be allowed to climb into bed with cereal and milk. 5:44 AM May 14th from web

My tickets say right here, in colored penciOH MY GOD I'VE BEEN DUPED. 10:29 PM May 12th from TwitterBerry

I'm at the Staples store in downtown LA but I don't see any sight of a basketball game. What gives? 10:28 PM May 12th from TwitterBerry 5:44 AM May 14th from web

And women. Who loved men. 8:57 PM May 9th from TwitterBerry

"Women loved him. And he loved women. And he loved men." 8:56 PM May 9th from TwitterBerry

If you put the two most popular rumors about me together, you get a gay womanizer. I love this. 7:38 PM May 9th from TwitterBerry

I smell like the safety bar on a roller coaster. 1:22 PM May 3rd from web

Getting these little ones off to school. I didn't recognize the bus driver this morning. Or the bus. Looked more like a van, reaOH MY GOD. 6:23 AM Apr 30th from web

Does anyone else capitalize every word in the subject line of an e-mail like I do? Is this wasted time on my end or does it connote class? 3:25 AM Apr 30th from web

I've been experimenting with trying to cut out the guitar face while playing but I just don't think it will ever be a reality. Whoops. 4:15 PM Apr 22nd from TwitterBerry

Tip: When eating Peeps, bite the head off the first one and replace it in the package for 15 minutes so that the others may know their fate. 2:54 PM Apr 12th from web

Dear sugar cookies - you are wonderful. Sometimes I pretend I want to eat Subway just so I can have you. Don't go changing, okay? Love you. 4:14 AM Apr 11th from TwitterBerry

I GET IT NOW!! I'm chatty! RT @SoOnandSoForth Subscribing to mobile alerts from @johncmayer was a bad choice. #celebrityspam 7:00 PM Apr 3rd from web

Hold on, I think I know what this is about... RT @SoOnandSoForth Subscribing to mobile alerts from @johncmayer was a bad choice. 7:00 PM Apr 3rd from web

If you put the two most popular rumors about me together, you get a gay womanizer. I love this. 7:38 PM May 9th from TwitterBerry

Saturday, May 16, 2009

"I was taught that candles are like house cats-- domesticated versions of something wild and dangerous." -Sloane Crosley (author of I Was Told There'd Be Cake)

Friday, May 8, 2009

I go to Cracker Barrel, I ask for the manager. He gets paged and comes over, he is a large man. Tall and big, I felt supremely small. I smiled and gave him my application, asked if he was hiring etc. he said to come in on Monday to talk to some other managers and to take it from there.

So...a job interview? But he didn't even get a chance to look at my app.

It's so strange, in all social atomospheres I am awkward and shy. But when I'm in the "working mode" when dealing with customers and wanting to get a job I'm smiley chipper friendly Chelsea. But I can't do that in other social situations.

Otherwise I bet I'd have a tons of friends.

My voice gets higher too.

Ps. Cracker Barrel = C.B. equals my initials.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

I'd rather be jobless than have a job I didn't even like.

If I'm going to stick to that I need to not go to Target anytime soon....dresses...

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Most of my dreams are feelings. There are actions, sequences etc. but the lasting effect is the feeling I get from them. And it makes me so upset sometimes that I can't explain the feeling, recounting the dream, what happened in it does nothing.

I think I was getting married, out of this world plans. I don't think I knew the guy very well, he was getting me all this stuff though. Setting up just outrageously gorgeous bedding ideas and I could see in, different rooms considered, like an upscale hotel of some sorts with crazy whimsical rooms.

I remember he wasn't very handsome, I remember a friend coming with her husband, a husband I always thought she could do better with and I told her about this guy and how I always thought I would marry someone completely different.

He was blonde, I remember that.

I'm sure he was handsome, just not the way that I pictured.

But I just remember these big huge plans that were all for me, he was catering to me and it wasn't creepy and I wasn't all worried about marriage or him or techinical things at all. None of it crossed my mind, it was like I was just floating around happy. Then something happened and we had to reschedule. I remember being upset ad hurt.

But the feeling I got from the dream is good, I know that. I can't imagine any of this hapening in real life, I won't be able to just float around as this stranger plans these things and part of me is sad that this dream can never come true.

I have to come back downt to earth and look at all the real things, the trust, money, being certain, blahblahblah.

But I like the feeling. Even if I can't really put it into words, I'm hoping that by jotting down what I do remeber the feeling will be remembered when reading this, even if it makes no sense.

It was a good dream though.

Why are my dreams so outrageous and complicated? They are way more captivating than anything I do in real life. It's life the great life that I can have as a person, the exciting and dreamy is only played out in my dreams....Some people get it in their days, I just get it at night.

I'm not really serious.

About the dream I am. GOOD DREAM.

Friday, April 17, 2009

5 chairs, we need 5 chairs. Our family is a family of 5. We no longer fill up every seat in the van. We are uneven.

Divorced.

I can't imagine a man I would like and trust enough to want to marry. Someone beautiful enough. Someone who loves the Lord, truly. Someone who doesn't think I'm ridiculous when I cry. Or when I want to stop and pet the homeless animals and give them food. Or when I'm just really tired and don't know why.

Sleeping on the floor with one large quilt next to a window when it is snowing makes a very cold night. And when your cat wakes you up crying multiple times, it makes for less sleep.

It's ok though.

When I read Bible verses online there is a strong force that pushes me to scroll past them for whatever reason. I try to fight it.

PHILIPPIANS:

...being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

What he starts he finishes. He doesn't get the ball rolling and then go off and do something else, he is there every step of the way

And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless untl the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ-to the glory and praise of God.

Insight, clarity in life. To know in your heart his will in what is right and good so that you remain as blameless as a fleshly human can until you meet Christ in Heaven, he will fill you with the righteousness that comes through him. you cannot do it alone. He supplies it, you use it. Practice it.

Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves.

Nothing we do should be for us alone. If we serve others before ourselves, and they in turn do the same, we are both being served to the greatest advantage anyways. We aren't to have a high self esteem, we aren't to have a low self esteem, we are to have no esteem.