5 chairs, we need 5 chairs. Our family is a family of 5. We no longer fill up every seat in the van. We are uneven.

Divorced.

I can't imagine a man I would like and trust enough to want to marry. Someone beautiful enough. Someone who loves the Lord, truly. Someone who doesn't think I'm ridiculous when I cry. Or when I want to stop and pet the homeless animals and give them food. Or when I'm just really tired and don't know why.

Sleeping on the floor with one large quilt next to a window when it is snowing makes a very cold night. And when your cat wakes you up crying multiple times, it makes for less sleep.

It's ok though.

When I read Bible verses online there is a strong force that pushes me to scroll past them for whatever reason. I try to fight it.

PHILIPPIANS:

...being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

What he starts he finishes. He doesn't get the ball rolling and then go off and do something else, he is there every step of the way

And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless untl the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ-to the glory and praise of God.

Insight, clarity in life. To know in your heart his will in what is right and good so that you remain as blameless as a fleshly human can until you meet Christ in Heaven, he will fill you with the righteousness that comes through him. you cannot do it alone. He supplies it, you use it. Practice it.

Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves.

Nothing we do should be for us alone. If we serve others before ourselves, and they in turn do the same, we are both being served to the greatest advantage anyways. We aren't to have a high self esteem, we aren't to have a low self esteem, we are to have no esteem.