I'm in Colorado. I'm always tired, I'm usually dizzy. My stomach was so sick today.

We got a house, on base. It's pretty nice, there are tons or deer on base all over, it's sooo weird. I want to move into the house asap but we're waiting til Monday, next Monday.

We have to rent furniture because our stuff won't be here for 40 something days at most.

I blew alot of money at Walmart the day that we left trying to fill up my life with souvs and such, it would have been so much easier and cheaper if I woulda done that slowly over the 8 years I lived there but honestly, I had no interest in it or in taking pictures of places I know back and forth as home and random cheesy keychains.

Lemme tell you, you picture a Hawaiian quilt on your bed in Hawaii, I think "Oh my gosh so cheesy and tacky" then I imagine it in Colorado and INSTANTLY it is SO COOL.

So yeah, thankfully there was alot of the vintagey pinup Hawaiian stuff so I pretty much bought everything with that stuff on it.

Plus a key chain of a hula girl and one with my name in Hawaiian that I wouldn't have been caught dead with if I was still living there because that's just a neon sign screaming HAOLEEE every time my keys come out of my purse.

I really want to start hanging stuff up in that room, the one I'll get, I brought all my hawaii crap with me to hang up becuase I knew I would appreciate it.

And some magazines with pages I've wanted to take out and hang up but never have because I didn't want to rip them takin them down.

Target has this pretty section of pink flowery bedding, it's so nice. Want.

Also...whatever I forgot. I've been depressed. I've had to stifle crying about how miserable I get realzing how lonely I am. When everything is brown and far apart, I see no potential for a home environment. I look outside as we drive around and the only life I can picture makes me so depressed I cry.

I think it will be better when we're in the house, I'll have some place to call my own and be in. With Lillie.

I really want to buy Gossip Girl season 1 and have been checking out places to buy it trying ot find it at the lowest price for the past week and a half. So far next to Amazon Walmart is the cheapest at $45 or so. Cheaper than Best buy target barnes and noble borders...so far.

AND I got a taylor swift Tshirt at walmart for 3 bucks and I am SO STOKED TO WEAR IT. I don't even care that it's actually a little girl's shirt and that it's borderline tacky. I love that gurl soooo much.

kk. I think watching TVD makes me relaxed and happier than most anything else. Gimme and bed and a tv and dvd player (along with my tvd collection" and I'll be set. Please include diet sunkist, Lillie, aaaaand instant oatmeal. For now.

I miss my Godbaby so much, I need to get a frame for her picture. MAN.

This is my Godbaby, I'm somewhere in line to be her Godmother, I made sure to tell Sharal that, even id I'm in 7th place. I AM THERE.